No digo cosas para decirlos...i love you, take it or leave it.

today was awesome. not for any particular reason, but i was just happy for the entire day (with the exception of that stupid tummy ache i got in creative writing.. i'm starting to dislike that class).

that thunderstorm that took our school by surprise this morning, was amazing. granted, i almost peed myself while andre, sandra and i were trying to get to the old building, and this ginormous lightning bolt struck down in the middle of our courtyard (or so it seemed). seriously, a little longer, and my life would have flashed through my eyes, lmao. i've never seen sandra more freaked in the two years i've known her, and i've never laughed more at andrea's face, or my blood piercing scream. it's funny how people always end up having so much more fun in situations they least expect to. gotta love how the world works.

anyway, that old feeling of freaking out with school work, exams, projects, books etc. is coming back, and i hate it at the same time that i love it. i work well under pressure, and so far, i've managed to study quite a bit, and catch up on most of the reading i needed to. the other weekend, i read through four of my old books that i hadn't looked at in a while, and became restless to re-read how the story ended, or began. another feeling i love...man i'm weird, but it's true.

spanish was so much fun. it was simpler in the way that, i don't over analyze those little things anymore. i don't freak out before i open the door (although the butterflies are deffinetely still there). i don't stress over my appearance (once i'm already sitting inside), and i don't think twice about saying what i feel, or my stupid nikki comments that usually make a crowd burst into laughter (usually at me, but i'd like to think with me :D ). i'm comfortable, really comfortable. eye contact is no longer so incredibly nerve racking. as a matter of fact, i kinda get the feeling that i got him a little nervous today. something about the way he approached me... it was cute. he's adorable... so incredibly adorable. i can't even explain it.

 

-- N