No digo cosas para decirlos...i love you, take it or leave it.

i'm so sick of it... all of it. EVERYTHING IS NOT OKAY. you know it, i know it, we all know it. its come to the point where the tension is tangible... but everyone puts up the smiles and laughs, and makes the jokes and shit.

what happened to that group i wrote to desi about? the one where we were a freaking family... we could count on each other... we never backstabbed each other, we never lied, or at least in the end we'd be able to say everything that's on our minds and get it all out and find a way to get back things to how they were. our bonds were unbreakable... and. i was so comfortable with it, i felt at home, i felt at ease. and it's all been lost recently to bullshit.

with the exception of one specific thing... which is probably still what hurts the most, it's all so ridiculous.

seriously, could you just say it and cut the crap?

.. i should probably take my own advice..